Malang, 23 December 2017
Dear my teacher,
You've been so kind to me. I've been considering you as my mother. But, this is what I am afraid of knowing the reality to come out as a gay.
Am I a bad boy? Did I do all the things you accuse?
If only you know how depressing it is to have a situation like mine. I have no support from the environment, get rejection and mockery, threatened, and judged.
It is not something I could choose or change. If only you know how heart breaking the attempt to be "normal" is. I have been trying since I grew up until I almost crazy.
Knowing everyone that I love turns to hate me makes me even depressed.
