Managerial Accounting Final Exam

Sydney, 26 June 2017

Today I just had my third exam for this semester's final exam, and there will be one more on next Wednesday. The first two exams went really well for me, but today's exam was a huge disappointment. It was Managerial Accounting exam. I had my reading for this subject every week, doing question practices every week, getting involved in class discussion every week, doing revision twice, and staying all night long to redo all over again. I have done so much effort for this subject. I am so disappointed that my effort does not help me in the final exam.

There were four questions in the exam to be accomplished within 2 hours. It means one question shall not be spent in more than 30 minutes. I was stick to that rule. Each question was a page long. Each question has several question points (up to six numbers, and each number has sub-numbers). I needed more time to understand what the questions want. It was not easy for me to get the meaning by reading it only once.

At the beginning, I was so panicking that I am afraid I couldn't finish to answer all the questions. The questions have pressurised my mental. I couldn't concentrate to read the questions calmly. All looks so difficult. I skipped number one, number two, number three and just jumped to number four first.

I also have OCD that makes me erase my messy handwriting and rewrite it again in more clear presentation. It wastes my time a lot. I kept telling myself to just let those messy handwriting be untouched otherwise I have no time to finish. But still, I did erase and rewrite it again.

However, I was determined to pass the exam, so I kept telling my self if I could do it. With a little bit of calmness, I got my confidence back. I couldn't finish number four question, but I finished all three other questions. It turns out that the questions were not so difficult after all. I just needed more concentration and calmness to do it. I was so regretful that I couldn't do it well. I felt like I have ruined all my effort I have done for a whole semester.

I have collected fairly good marks for this subject before the exam, but those are meaningless if I fail the final exam. I just couldn't fail the exam. I'll be so disappointed. I try to think positively that I might have a chance to pass by answering more than 75% of the exam questions. But who can guarantee that all those 75% answers are all correct. I have a big issue with calculation accuracy. I sometimes enter wrong number on my paper or on my calculator. I am so afraid if it causes my failure. Marking guidance in here is so strict that you'll be given a zero mark if you get wrong result despite your steps are correct. And there is no remedial exam, unlike what we have in Indonesian's universities.

I am so tired with this subject. I just do not want to do this subject again next semester. I will be very ashamed if I have to come back to this class again. I was always so overconfident in the class that my tutor and my friends might think that I am really good at this subject. I know if failure is just a part of learning process. But, I just cannot fail at this Master study. I am having a contract with my institution and with my sponsorship. I am in a big pressure. 

Sydney, 21 June 2017

I just woke up at 1 pm today and I almost missed my lunch.

Being a Gay and a Muslim, is It Possible?

Sydney, 20 June 2017

I just found some interesting videos about how it is to be a gay Muslim, which I always thought homosexuality and Islam (and some other religions) can never ever agree to each other. You can check the videos here:

episode 1

episode 2

episode 3

This makes me think if I have been so wrong in judging Islam. I am probably just controlled by my anger to intolerant Muslims around me. Probably my anger should be addressed to those people, not to my religion or to my god. Maybe the mistake is in those people, not in the religion.

As what Muneer said in episode 1 video above, relationship between human and his god should be the most personal thing in the world, that no one can tell whether he is practicing his religion correctly or not. This is also what my crush said to me, that he probably practices Islam as his religion, but in term of relationship between him and his god, he has his own interpretation.

However, this non-uniformity of practice and interpretation may rise a question whether or not they are still in the same religion after all. Some people desire uniformity in the practice since it is all clearly being stated in the Quran, thus whoever deviates from this standardised practice is considered misguided. But again, which standard is the real one and which interpretation is the correct one, since there are various of them and everyone claims their own standard and interpretation as the rightest one.

Everyone may claim their own faith is the truest one, thus if so, they should respect other people's faith too. Forcing someone else to acknowledge their faith as the most correct one is very intolerant. War and manslaughter in the name of religion happen repetitively because their faith tells them to be intolerant to other groups. They can never agree until other groups follow them or die.

I guess, if they want to show or promote their religion to other people, they should do it sympathetically and just let other people independently decide whether will have a voluntary willingness to learn that religion or not. Otherwise, who's gonna believe them? Are they promoting their religion or forcing other people to follow their religion?

Personalised Post Stamp

Sydney, 20 June 2017

On 11 June 2017, or exactly a month before his 25th birthday, I was thinking what kind of birthday surprise I am going to give to him. Suddenly, I had an idea to send him a birthday postcard from here. To make it more special, I ordered personalised post stamps from Australia Post website. This pesonalised post stamp allows people to put their own personal photograph on a valid post stamp. It is not a difficult task for me to find his pictures on internet, just to give him a little surprise. The stamps costs $55 for 20 stamps worth 2.10$ each, a quite a much amount of money if I just need only one stamp.

The purchase was successful and I got the invoice sent to my email. The site says if I can track my order, but when I check into my order history, I couldn't find my ordered item. I just waited for the stamps to come up to today since it says the delivery will come around 14 to 20 June 2017. I checked my college mail box everyday, but the letter has not come yet. I have submitted an inquiry related to this issue but I haven't gotten any answer yet.

So today I make a phone call to customer service officer to ask my order. It takes 23 minutes for them to find where it goes wrong but they just couldn't find my order. They say sorry and gave me a phone number of division who does the personalised post stamp, so if within 10 business days I don't receive my parcel, I could ask to that phone number.

It was a little bit disappointment for me since it will delay my postcard to come to him on his birthday. Now I am in a crossroad whether to wait for the prsonalised post stamp to come or just to send it by a regular post stamp.

My First Semester 2 Final Exam

Sydney, 20 June 2017

So, today I just had my first final exam for this semester. It is going to be such a very stressful time for me since everyone are having Eid al Fitr holiday. I am feeling so lonely in here in my room just to study for my exam. I am missing people that I love in Indonesia and I really want to go back home this winter break, but I cannot. I didn't plan it earlier and it is too late to plan to go home now since the flight tickets are already so expensive. The guy that I like also rarely replies my messages, and I am too afraid to lose him. It makes me so anxious that I couldn't stay focus on my study. I wasted my time too much lying on my bed thinking about him.

Last night I just slept for only less than two hours, from 1 am to 3 am in the morning. I didn't sleep again until I had my exam this morning. Despite my stress level, I determined to finish my study well, and it was worth it. I could answer almost all the exam questions without any difficulties, although I will my expectation into a prudent level especially for the essay questions. At least, today's exam gives me confident to finish the following exams that I will have in these two weeks.

What I do always notice in every exam that I have, especially when I am answering multiple choice question on computer-based answer sheet, is that I am always driven to fill the circles very perfectly. I will definitely erase the answer if there is a small offside stroke and I will refill the circle again. I am afraid if this will cause my answer sheet cannot be read by the computer. And this wastes my time a lot in an exam.

So after I had a sleepless night but ended up with a good day in exam, I just had a long nap this afternoon. I am ready to study for the next exam that I'll have this Friday.

Qibla Direction

Sydney, 19 June 2017

This Ramadan, I notice that my roommate is changing his qibla direction when he prays.

I don't mean to have my finger in his pie since I don't even pray at all. But this makes me so curious whether I have missed something about my own religion.

So, our windows' room are facing northwest. The qibla direction shall be on the west (facing left). He used to pray facing left, but lately, he changed his prayer's direction 90° to the right so now he is facing to the north.

I used to be at the back side of him when he prayed, but now, he prays facing directly into my desk, as if he worships me when I am studying.

I am thinking if probably there is a special exception to change qibla direction during Ramadan based on his belief, but I don't know. Does anyone know whether this practice is common?

Olfactory Memory

Sydney, 19 June 2017

What is the thing that can suddenly open up your long gone memories? A photograph, a person, a scenery, a house, a food, a voice, a melody, a sound, a news, a sentence?

For me, it would be a scent. In normal situation, I can't tell what kind of scent that I had for a particular moment in my life. But once I smell a distinct scent of the ambience, it drags me back into a long gone memory. My brain will suddenly recalls it and tells me "I know this scent, I know this ambience!".

I can smell the moment when I visited my grandparents' house. I can smell the moment when I just entered my new school. Just like couple days ago, I can recognise the winter scent of my room again, the very same scent that I had when I just arrived here last year.

Globe Planet

Sydney, 19 June 2017

I still remember the conversation I had with my classmates in the class when I was a kindergarten student. I was talking with a female classmate (I forget her name, it is like Irma or something), and arguing with a male classmate (I totally forget his name).

So, I talked supposed that my female friend and I were in a planet. It was a blue, small, round planet (not a flat planet). Then, my male friend said he is going to visit our planet. So I said, "no you cannot. I will cover my planet with liquid soap so you will be slipped away".

Now I am wondering how I knew the concept that the planet is a globe, while I was still a kindergarten student. While today, so many adults are confused whether earth is spherical or flat.

I did like to read anything even before I entered kindergarten. I can still remember the pictures of the magazines that I really like to read when I was kid. I can describe them very clearly. I can still remember some of my childhood memories. They are so clear as if I can see them now right in front of my eyes. They are still stored really well in my brain cell up to now. They are like fragmented stories, just like a puzzle.

Exam is Almost Here

Sydney, 19 June 2017

"When you have an anxiety disorder and you are falling in love, it will ruin a whole your day".

I just can't concentrate to anything else except worried about him. The anxiety is even getting worse to know that I am having exam in next few days. I am super panicking now, but my mind just does not want to do anything except getting worried even more and more.

Science Boy

Sydney, 18 June 2017

I just found an interesting picture on Facebook that reminds my past when I was a high school students.

I was a science bookworm. To me, science was fun, very interesting, and very logical. (Even up to now, I subscribe a lot of science channels on YouTube and I watch their videos almost everyday). I never tried to memorise the formulas. I tried to understand them, how they come up, and how they work and explain the nature's phenomena.

Meanwhile, I was so bad in social science subjects. Everything must be memorised. That was not how my brain works. My brain always questioned everything in social science which I found them make no sense. It was a hard time for me that I slipped to study taxation, accounting, and public finance in the college.

Sydney Film Festival

Sydney, 16 June 2017

Couple weeks ago, Giorgio showed me a news from Indonesia. It was about a gay couple got canned in Aceh province of Indonesia. Then I told him how I feel sad and disappointed by all the discrimination against LGBT in Indonesia. Later, he showed me a schedule of a Film Festival that would be on going at Sydney, and the theme of the festival is gay film. He said he would be going there and he asked me to join. So I said yes and last night we and some other friends went there.

The theatre (Sydney State Theatre) is so spacious and grande with balconies and sculptures on the sides, it reminds me to a classic European hall or cathedral. The entrance is also so classic that is designed like an old theatre in US. The ticket price was $17, which is a little bit too pricey I guess, but I enjoyed the experience.

The film that we watched is "Call Me by Your Name". Briefly, it tells a story of a boy who falls in love with his father's coworker. Coincidentally, the theme of the film was just exactly the same topic of discussion that I had with my crush few days ago. It tells how gay people have to conceal themselves and try to fit within society, make a relationship/ get married with a woman, but they cannot lie to themselves about their homosexuality. This is so sad that there are a lot of hearts being broken, both men and women.

The film got appreciation from the spectators. They gave applause at the end of the movie. The spectators are not only gay people, in fact, I saw a lot of heterosexual couples, young couples or old couples. They do really appreciate and respect other people no matter what their sexual orientation is.

Stalking My Crush

Sydney 17 May 2017

I cannot stay focus on studying. I'm still feeling blue since I watched Sydney Film Festival few days ago. The story has made me feel that I am missing someone to love. There's an emptiness inside my heart now. I'm missing to be cuddled, to be hugged, to be kissed. I am just sad.

Meanwhile, I am now having a crush to a guy I met during summer break in Indonesia. It has been few months for me to know him now but still, it is too short time to talk my feeling to him. I'm just afraid if I lose him. I just can't stop thinking of him. 

I started to search more about his profile on internet. I would say I am pretty good in gathering someone's information on internet. He may hide his information or set it into private, but his friends may not. I can easily trace all his life story from his friends' social media. I don't know whether or not it is ethical or whether or not it is annoying for him, but this is a method that is used by companies to collect their customers profile, and I have that experience.

I found a lot of his old pics which are cute and his old conversations with his ex which are so sweet. I will not ask him anything about it since it is too personal and probably he may not be willing his story to be exposed. And probably I am too sassy and doing too far and crossing someone's privacy. And probably, he does not want to remember his love story with his ex.

Reading through his stories makes me even sadder. I can tell how they had a beautiful romance. I feel so envious to them for having a sweet love story. But then, (this also a question for myself) how can a love that we thought will last forever, that we thought was a true love, suddenly turns off and gone. Where is the love gone?

What I hope I can learn from here is how I should respect someone since they must have been through a rough life, a bitter sweet life. 

My Greatest Regret Right Now (But It isn't After All)

Sydney, 14 June 2017

So I just woke up very late since I always go to bed very late too. It is a little bit a concern for me since I need to get up early for my exam next week. However, right now I want to tell you my bad dream (not necessarily a nightmare) I just had this morning.

So, some of my best friends in my college will graduate this semester. Subconsciously, this makes me feel sad since I have to stay here for another one year. Going to University of Sydney is never my dream in my life. Choosing MPAcc course is also not my 100% desired plan. Now I have to stuck in the uni that is never in my dream, and also to study boring subjects that I have learnt before in my undergraduate, but now with ridiculously difficult level to get mark.

Then I feel so regretful why I was in hurry to choose Usyd. If only had I been a little bit patient, I would have been in London now, studying my desired courses in my dream university, and graduating this year too. Now I feel like I am wasting my life for something I don't really like. I am thinking what a useless years I am just making now.

This lesson has taught me that there is no hurry in life. Life is not a race. I am supposed to enjoy it. I should not make my life as a competition with other people. I have been in this situation before when I went to STAN, a school and its subjects that I never ever had in my mind! I always try to positively think that there must be something I can learn from every moment in my life. Something that widens my perspective and hopefully makes me wiser in seeing the life.

I thought I have forgotten my regret to go here, but still, the regret sometimes haunts me back again and again.

Update: I told this story to him, and he said to me, "you said to me because you study at Sydney, you can come back home during summer break, and last summer you can meet me. Supposed that you studied at London now, I could never meet me". Yes I told him so, and how could I forgot the most precious blessing from this journey.

OCD

Sydney, 14 June 2017

One characteristic of OCD symptom says if the patient may worry to hit pedestrians when he drives a car. That's something very true in me. I always think what if something could go so wrong and results in the worst grief such as lost of lives. I have had this imagination since I was young but I didn't realise if it is a symptom of OCD. When I told my imagination to my friends, they always said if I had an exaggeratingly negative thoughts.

Another characteristic of OCD is that the person always double-triple-quadruple-checks on every works he just did just to make sure if everything has been done correctly and securely. This is also very true in me. 10 years ago, my best friend said to me "you are an over-worried person". I didn't understand what he said at that time. I didn't see that was in me. But now I just understand what he meant.

Julia Perez

Sydney, 11 June 2017

The death of Julia Perez has proven that people will remember your kindness rather than remember your religion when you die.

Julia Perez has a very good personality. She is humorous, friendly, kind, and down-to-earth person. She never fakes herself. She just become who she really is.

She made a lot of controversy. She is honest and straightforward person. Some people don't like her too-sexy-look but she does not care to what other people say. She is kind of bitchy but she is not cheap. She is generous and she likes to help people in need. She makes people around her always smiling and laughing.

She is Muslim and she is proud of it. She is not Muslim woman that covers all her body. She might have glamorous celebrity's lifestyle. I am not going to judge her belief nor her life. Some people did judge her look and lifestyle in religious perspective. But it didn't bother her. She enjoyed her life.

Now she has passed away after two years fighting her cancer. Everyone remembers her as a good person. Everyone feels lost of her. No one judges her anymore.

When I die, I want to die like her. I want people to remember me because of my kindness to others. I don't want people to judge me because of my faith, nor my sexual orientation, which all are my personal businesses. I want to show the world that what I do towards others when I live is more important than my status, my religion, my sexual orientation, etc.

I want to show the world that religion, sexual orientation, and status do not necessarily make someone a good or a bad person. What you've done for the world does make you a good or a bad person.

Mom's Love is True Love

Sydney, 11 June 2017

My mom always bought me everything  that we need although I know we were having financial difficulties. She bought me a pair of clothes with a belt that I really liked for our Eid al-Fitr. She bought me a fancy pencil case but then I destroyed it when I was angry. She bought us cellphones but we rejected them since they were not the model we liked. She bought me a keyboard after she refused my request to send me to piano lesson. She bought me a computer and a printer since I needed it to finish my school assignments. She bought us everything for our life that I could never be able to count how much it is. She worked really hard to keep us alive and to send us to school.

But she never say love. She is not sentimental person who can easily speak up her feeling or show up her emotion. She never shed a tear. She lived in a hard life. She does not to say love. She has shown me how much she loves me without a single word.

When we were in difficult time, my mom never gave up to work only for her kids. When we had difficult time, where was my father, the one who always kept telling us to prioritise our religion? I am already sick with the religious hypocrisy.

When You Want to Kill Yourself but at the Same Time You Want to Protect Your Life.

Sydney, 11 June 2017

Have you ever had a mind that you are really afraid to harm your life and other people's life around you but at the same time you want to kill yourself or you like to watch people dying?

Today I accompanied my friend to do inspection in an apartment across Sydney Hyde Park. The unit is on 24th floor and the view from the top is breathtaking. However when I stood on the balcony, there was an invisible force inside my mind that drags me into the edge of the balcony and tells me to jump over the railing. However, at the same time, my sanity says the balcony is so dangerous that if I lose my mind I can just jump over the fence without thinking twice and kill myself. Thus if the unit were mine, I would definitely put safety net on that balcony.

I don't want in die in a silly and stupid way. I always feel so deeply regretful when I know some people just die in dumb ways. I always keep saying that they could have just lived now if only they didn't do those stupid things. Life is so precious and once we lost it, we could not get it back (at least for now). Thus, I will not let myself to die in stupid ways, since it will hurt people who love me so much.

Religion versus Science

Sydney, 10 June 2017

What if the science finally defeats all the theories told by a religion? Will the followers admit it, will they deny it, or will they try to find a way to fit their religion into science?

It has been so long time that religion becomes obstacle in the development of science. They say it is unethical, exceeding human nature, or cheating the destiny. Let's count:

1. Medication, artificial immunity, aesthetic medical treatment, cloning, surrogate womb, head transplantation, to the research of resurrection. 
2. The genetic engineering.
3. The theory of heliocentric, rejection to the idea of sending people to land on the moon, the debate of flat earth versus globe earth, to sending probes to find extraterrestrial life.
4. The birth control.
5. The theory of evolution.
6. The idea of enhancing the quality of life, the requirement to wear safety equipment and requirement to raise safety standard.
7. And so on.

I do quite often hear some people around me saying "Why do people conduct useless research? Why do they send spaceship? Why do they collect climate data, marine-related data, biodiversity data? Why do they conduct research on atom? Why do they conduct research on the origin of life? Why do they explore the space?" and so on. To them, worshiping their god to get His heaven after death is more important than being real in life. They forget they have been enjoying the convenient life thanks to scientists who have discovered the secret of nature. 

They prefer to plainly accept the information that is written in their holy book. They are never encouraged to be critical. It is taboo to ask anything that has been written in their holy book. Meanwhile, the book has been centuries old now and often conflicts with the current development. I hear too many noise and rejection from them.

When human finally can play God, will the religion survive?

Is Homosexual Disgusting?

Sydney, 10 June 2017

Many people say homosexuality is disgusting. They say same sex relationship is so wrong and violates the nature.This concept is defined by their religion. They say homosexuals is not even worthier than animals. Thus they argue homosexuals deserve to be vanished from the earth.

But again, can we make a justification merely based on someone's religion? What if every person has totally different belief to one another? Who does set the standard that heterosexual is beautiful and homosexual is disgusting? While in fact, homosexuality comes in nature.

If homosexual relationship is disgusting, then why is heterosexual relationship not? If straight men admire the beauty of women's body, then can the others appreciate the beauty of men's body? Isn't it everyone beautiful, superficially or skin-deeply. If some people see homo-sexual intercourse as disgusting thing, then why don't they judge the same thing to hetero-sexual intercourse? Aren't both the same disgusting things since they involve disgusting genitals?

Lastly, why do some people feel superior because of their sexual orientation? Why do they think if they have a right to force their belief to other people? It is as if the know everything in life just based on their holy book. While they never know how it feels to be a homosexual.

Finding Love is Like Bargaining

Sydney, 10 June 2017

Finding love is like bargaining. Quite often, we like someone who does not like us back. Meanwhile, there are some people who like us but we don't like them.

So what is love? Why do we like someone? Why do we have an attraction to someone, but not to everyone? What does make someone looks so special and attractive in our brain? Does it come naturally, or can we make this feeling up?

At the end, one of them must lower his idealism. But who? Can the relationship last forever when one of them still feels incomplete? When love is supposed to be an honest relationship, can it still be called love when it involves bargaining?

Nobody is perfect, but I will not bargain my life for the one that I don't honestly love with. My patience will be worth to wait and I deserve someone that I do really love and who loves me back.

When You Suddenly Feel so Sad

Sydney, 10 June 2017

Have you ever been in a situation that you suddenly feel so sad without any clear reason (or with any small reason)? Your chest suddenly feels so warm and hardly breathes. You feel like you have a huge regret in your life. You feel like you are useless person and you think you have failed your life. You feel like it has been too late now and there is no way to fix it.

You want to hide from everyone. You want to be alone in your dark room and cry a lot. You want to turn back the time to the moment when you were safe in your mom's embrace. You want to have one more chance to start your life all over again. All you want is to run away from your current life.

When you feel so desperate and giving up your own life, it eventually makes your situation even worse and worse. You want to raise back again but your despair is too strong to pull you back down. You don't have a friend that always beside you. They have given up on you. They have left you. You are all alone in in the dark.

The Ugly Truth of Gay Life

Sydney, 10 June 2017

I remember he said to me "the ugly truth of gay life is they only care about physical appearance". I will not say I disagree. I admid I do like to see good looking bodies. Men, whether straights or gays, are visual creatures. And so are women. There is no such gay stereotype about it.

I used to be self conscious about my body shape. But then I gave up to my own life and tried to find excuse to my obesity. Isn't it hypocritical when I prefer a good looking guy with a good body while I don't care with my own body?

Relationship may begin with physical attraction. But relationship must be maintained by attitude. I wish I could prove my love by only showing my caring and honesty. I wish to love and to be loved is unconditional, just be who we really are, and no need to change ourselves. But it apparently does not work this way. 

Do we really need a reason to love? What if the reason has gone, will the love remain?

Vivid Sydney 2017

Sydney, 7 June 2017

Vivid Sydney has started since 26 May 2017 but I just had an opportunity to go there last Sunday. I had a lot of assignments due to finish before I could go to Vivid Sydney. So on last Sunday, my Indonesian friends and I met in Circular Quay to explore Vivid Sydney together. I also invited some my Chinese classmates to join.

Shortly when we arrived, there were a lot of people flocking the Circular Quay area. We hardly managed ourselves to keep together. So, we finally separated. I walked together with my classmates and left my Indonesian friends. We walked down from Circular Quay Opera House, Botanical Garden, Martin Place, and ended at Darling Harbour.

I didn't feel satisfied with Vivid Sydney for some reasons. Firstly, there were too many visitors so that restricts me to take pictures conveniently. Secondly, the shows were underwhelming. It was not as great as I expected. My most favourite show is "the magicians of the mist" in Darling Harbour. It is a fountain shows collaborated with light shows. It was spectacular. 

Another thing that makes me less enjoyed the walk is I was having a quiz at the following day, which I had not finished my revision yet. But I had promised them to have fun on that day, so I just followed where they go. Before we walked back home, we dropped by a Japanese restaurant (Kura at Dixon) near Darling Harbour for some drinks. They had wide range of good "sake"s. I have had plum sake last semester, but this time, it was my first time to try warm sake.

What I did that evening was actually an underestimation to my quiz. I didn't finished my revision but I was overconfident that I could answers all the questions, since I have studied every week for this subject. But the reality is I failed on the quiz. It makes my mood turned very bad on that day. So at the evening, I decided to visit Vivid Sydney again to forget my worry. But this time I went alone so I could have my own space and time to take pictures and enjoy the shows.

I walked from my college to Central station, and along the way, I took some long exposure photography. Here are some results that I got.

And here are some pictures that I took on Circular Quay on that day:

And here are some pictures that I took at Darling Harbour

Yana Zein

Sydney, 3 May 2017

The death of Yana Zein has shown me how egoistic some Muslims are and how wise Christians are.

The news was commented by many people on Facebook, and I came to a conclusion.

Christians say it does not matter if Yana is buried with Islamic or Christian way. The most important is her deeds when she lived.

Her father, who is a Muslim (who also has abandoned her for another wives), suddenly came during her burial and asked to bury her in Islamic way. 

Muslim argues, Yana is her father's dependent. In Islam, father is fully responsible to his daughter's islamness. All daughter's sin will also be her father's sin. In this case, Yana's father does not want his negligance will cause him and Yana end up in hell.

If Yana has decided to be a Christian, why can't his father respect his daughter's belief? He just wants to save himself based on his own perspective. Thus, he forces the deceased to follow his belief and he does not accept other people's belief. (Aren't we so familiar with this intolerant behaviour in many many aspect in life?)

Is this the true picture of Muslims? I remember some people argue the importance of religion information in identity card is to know how the deceased should be buried. Is it that important over anything else? Then why is it so important? Is it the furthest logic they can argue?

Their answer will come back again to their religion's dogma. Because that's what being said by their religion and there is no other arguments accepted. And it turns to be so egoistic, proven by this case.

Why can't they just help and take care other people regardless their belief? Why does the status of religion become so important to help in the name of humanity? Why don't they just respect the deceased without complicating her based on her religion?

While Christians pray for her, some Muslims keep cursing and judging her for her ambiguous religion status.

Sydney, 2 June 2017

I just got a news from my team member that our accounting essay got a very good mark.We got 13 out of 15, or about 86%. It is something beyond my expectation since I remember last semester we only got 56%. 

This semester, all my essay assignments got better marks than my last semester assignments. The significant improvement is the structure of my essay. 

Safety is Number One

Sydney, 2 June 2017

I recall that I have been too much worried about safety.

1. I have been so afraid of height if I am not well equipped with safety gear. But I enjoy the ride in amusement park since I know I am safe.
2. I have been so afraid to go out of the house during thunderstorm to risk my life to get struck by lightning. I feel much better to hide inside building that has lightning rod, or hide inside the car that works on Faraday cage principle, since I know it is much safer.
3. I have been so fussy when I am driving a car. I always make sure that everyone in the passenger seat has put their seat belt on. I always consider to buy a car with five-star safety rating.
4. I always draw a house design with excessive safety features such as earthquake-proof structure. I even dream to live in a cave house up above the cliff so be safe from any danger.
5. I always double secure on everything. For example, when I am doing my electricity work, I always exaggeratedly  double wrap the cable with glue gun to avoid leakage and electricity short circuit.
6. And so forth.

Religious Bigotry

Sydney 2 June 2017

No matter how high someone's education level is, no matter how long someone has lived abroad, someone can just be a bigot when he/she is religious closed-minded person. I know a lot of people who have very high education levels, or who have lived quite long time in secular countries, but they keep posting hate speeches and narrow-minded comments in regard to their religion's perspective.

When they come to the verses in their holy book, their brain cells just become dead. They won't accept any outside perspectives that contradict with what their religion says. They have an absolute truth so they will not be bothered to find any explanation against their belief.

They have lived in secular countries and enjoyed the secular system. They study and get living from those countries. But they don't really mingle with the local culture. They have their own exclusive community that keeps their own value: narrow-mindedness. The cases of Indonesian restaurant "Willis Canteen" in Sydney and "Salero Minang" in Den Haag have shown how hypocritical they have become.

Respect is Earned not Given

Sydney, 29 May 2017

Some Indonesian Muslims are angry because they think their religion has been insulted their scholars are being ridiculed. But I believe what happens to them now is the result of their own attitudes towards other people. First off, they have become moralists, claiming themselves as the moral standard for other people. Secondly, they use their moral standard to judge and punish other people. They think they have been the rightest group so that they deserve to be the moral police to others. Lastly, they are actually such hypocrites that makes other people disrespect them. They have not done any better than the people that they are judging. They should have look at to themselves before judging other people.

They ask other people to respect them, but they have been disrespecting other people. Like some people say "respect is earned not given".

Annoying Alarms

Sydney, 1 June 2017

This morning, I woke up in muscle pain since I didn't turn on the heater last night. The temperature has dropped to single digit as winter is coming soon.

I woke up early since I need to study for my class today. Last night I slept much earlier than usual since I was so tired for finishing my assignment. Meanwhile my roommate as usual, stay up all night and went to bed in the morning. He usually wakes up at noon.

However, his bad habits are endless even when he's sleeping. Just like what is happening now. He is sleeping in the morning, but he sets multiple alarms that ring in every five minutes. He does not wake up! It is me who stays awake and get annoyed with his alarm. I can't concentrate to my study.

If he does not intend to wake up in the morning, why does he set those alarms? Should I tell him? or can I just throw his phone out of the window?